So many
Stories
I have told
Myself
Gentle stories of comfort
And gratitude for shelter from the storm
Hopeful stories about friendship
And just wanting to tell you everything
Sweet stories about desire
And how it feels to love you
Stoic stories about patience
And how we are grown and have responsibilities and work to do
Old stories about possibility
And how I needed to learn to be content with… nothing
Silent stories about bodies
And memories that make me leave myself behind
Neurotic stories about attachment
And how having so many feelings probably isn’t healthy
Disappointing stories about freezing up
Words catching in my throat
Familiar stories about being messy
And too much for anyone to ever stay
Brave stories about courage
And how I am trying not to give up
On me
Or you
Silly stories about finally
Getting over myself because this is ridiculous and it can’t actually be anywhere near as complicated as I am making it
Tender stories about trusting you
Enough
To believe that
Somehow
You might be able to understand
Me
Even if I got it all wrong
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